So for the last month and a half I have been off the wagon a bit. Although we had lots of birthdays and events in my family this is no excuse to slack off when you have as much weight … Continue reading
It’s no secret that eating too much food, especially the wrong kinds of foods (the ones I’m speaking of actually are not food) and a sedentary lifestyle can get you a gargantuan body. Another huge factor in weight gain, one that isn’t talked about much and really does the most damage is denial. This past week I realized I am an expert at it.
I started getting chubby when I was 7. I became extremely self-conscious and began to dress in ways that covered up every nook and cranny of my body. I was 120 lbs in 5th grade. Although I was a bit larger than the other kids, my parents had raised me well enough to know I was a complex person and that there are many ways people are beautiful. I knew my hair was nice, I was pleasant-looking enough and had a good personality. These things were on my mind most of the time when I thought about myself, even until recently.
However, underneath it all I was keeping a secret from myself. I just found out about it recently. I had never really assessed myself physically. I had never allowed myself to notice just how big I was. I never let myself look lower than my neck in the bathroom mirror. I was downright angry when people took pictures of my whole body and even would be quite blunt about them not doing it in the first place. I was lying to myself and I wasn’t going to have anyone mess that up with an unflattering picture. I was so deep in the lie that every time I had begun to lose weight, I would stop around my 10% mark and think “okay great, you obviously look great now, you can go ahead and take it easy on eating right”. What a LIE!
Last week I reached my 10%. I still felt really fat. I looked at my body in the mirror. Really looked at it in the mirror. All the way around and seeing it for what it is. Not what I wish it was. Not focusing on the things I like about it. Just seeing it. I was surprised to notice that I am still really big. I shared with my husband how upset I was about what I saw. I’m blessed to have a husband that truly loves me the way that I am and he offered words of encouragement that kept me from breaking down completely. But the sad truth is, I’m VERY overweight and I need to keep going.
I have lived the last 25 years only trying to look at the good things about myself and pushing the truth about my body away. This is not a pity party. This is me knowing I need to go all the way. I will not be satisfied until I am a normal and healthy weight. Sometimes it’s so hard to really look at yourself and see the truth. I am happy for the awakening and am sure this is my last time ever trying to lose this weight. I’m just so done with being big.
I’m going on 3 months of changing over to a more healthy lifestyle. The shock has worn off and I love living this way. I feel better every single day. However, I haven’t lost weight in at least two weeks. I keep fluctuating up and down about the same 6 lbs. This is with a whole foods mostly PALEO diet and regular vigorous exercise and light weight training. The weight started coming off quickly in the first two months, now I seem to be at a dead stand still. I’m ready to pull my hair out!!!
Now the question is, how do I jump-start my weight loss again? Thank God I kept a food journal on my “My Net Diary” app on my phone because now I can go back in and see what I was doing to lose the first large amount of weight and do that exact thing again. Sometimes I will eat the same meals for two or three weeks, then I’ll find some new recipe or two or three of them and then my diet shifts again. Something I am eating now, or maybe not eating is keeping me from losing. I just know it!
So today, I will do my exercise, and I will fully evaluate my food behaviors to get this party started again. I do have to give myself some props here. Number 1 for tracking my food, I feel relieved to know I can go back in and see what worked for me. Number 2 that I didn’t just give up at this point and go back to my old ways! Finally Number 3 because my mind is really changed! I will never go back to an unhealthy lifestyle and I am so happy to say that, once and for all!
I wanted a clean, simple life. I knew that had to start with my body…
Two years ago we stopped eating fast food. I know I know, I’ve heard the attempts from family and friends at encouragement sopping with veiled doubt and condescension. I am a very strong-willed person though and when I decide I’m going to do something, by golly I do it (with my sweet husband and children in tow). At about the same time, I was looking into bariatric surgery and was even doing my 6 month Dr supervised diet with food counseling (seeing a therapist about why and what I’m eating once a month). I was sure that bariatric surgery would be the only option for me and had resigned myself to it. By the end of that 6 months something happened, something snapped inside me and I realized that what they were telling me was lies.
Here’s the rundown of what I had to do for the 6 months. I went to a “nutritionist seminar” at their facility to find out what my diet would consist of. When they said it would be a very low-carb diet with restricted vegetables and basically no fruit I didn’t bat an eye. When they told me I wouldn’t feel very good and I would lose an enormous amount of hair I didn’t even give it a thought (except, gee that sucks). And so, the new diet began and I was pumped! During that time I did lose 30 lbs. I did it by eating hardly any calories and drinking coffee all day to curb my hunger. Once in a while I would slip up but I mostly stayed the course and of course began to lose hair, lots of it. I continued to lose hair into the next year even after coming off the diet.
At the end of the 6 month Dr supervised diet, I had my AHA moment. I was in the counselors office and she was congratulating me on what little weight loss I did achieve (30 lbs wasn’t very good for my weight) when she told me that after the surgery I would need to continue this diet. At that moment a light went on! I could not believe my ears! You mean to tell me that I still have to eat this OBVIOUSLY deficient and unsatisfying diet the rest of my life! I was appalled to say the least and after I politely left my session, the wheels began to turn.
It occurred to me that if I always had to eat this way then what in the hell was the surgery for!? If I have to suffer, I’m certainly not going to do it with my insides looking like Frankenstein! I was lost, confused and had no clue what I should do. I knew I should keep saying no to the fast food and that I was not going to have surgery.
A year later (six weeks ago) I finally went to the Dr and had an advanced lipid panel (blood work) and a food allergy test done on myself. The Dr suggested I get educated about the Paleo lifestyle and so over the next week or so, I did some research. It didn’t look super exciting to me, but heck if it would keep me alive, I was down. I had my mind-set on what I wanted to achieve and I went and filled my pantry and refrigerator with all the correct foods. I am no fancy chef but I can hold my own in the kitchen and so eating unprocessed foods wouldn’t be too hard for me. Once I got my food allergy results back I started really losing by eating foods that worked for me.
I was looking up articles on the web, reading books and watching documentaries like a mad woman! I was following Paleo perfectly and then one day I woke up sick. Apparently when you go cold turkey on bad carbs you can get carb-flu. Well I had it. The only solution after this happening every other day for a week was to add in one “bad” carb a day. For me it’s usually a cup of brown rice with dinner or sweet potato or organic granola. On Friday nights I make gluten-free pizzas with goat cheeses on top instead of cow’s milk cheese and it’s a real treat and I eat a half of a pizza and it’s wonderful! I even weighed less after my weekends then I do when I start them, which is unheard of for me when I’m on a diet. usually I go buck ass wild on the weekends because I am just dying to eat! This is something I do for me and it works. You would have to find out what works best for your body. Give yourself a few weeks to iron it out. For me, a reasonable, well-balanced and clean diet was and is the answer.
I am now free of fast foods (all of them), processed foods, eggs (once in a while I have one but it’s rare) soy, peanut, dairy, sugar and artificial sweeteners and gluten-free and I feel wonderful! You know what else, my life is easier, when I’m hungry my only options are whole foods, which in a lot of cases require no cooking! We eat lots of almonds, dates, fruits and vegetables all day long. I even add vegetables to my smoothies because why not!?
The truth is your body needs fruits, vegetables and protein and some people need grains. I can’t believe I let a Dr tell me to eat such an unhealthy diet when I first began to change. It’s crazy that I didn’t even question it or look into it, I feel pretty silly now.
Any diet that you will lose hair from is not a good balanced and healthy diet. Any diet that requires that you remove good wholesome foods from your everyday eating is not good for you. Any diet that allows you to eat processed foods is not going to work out well for your health in the long run. Uncomplicate your life starting with your food. Reduce the ingredients in what you prepare (unless it’s other fruits and vegetables or herbs and spices) and simplify it.
Stick to whole (preferably organic) foods, drinking water only and a bit of exercise, but don’t over complicate it. It’s very simple, get nutrition and get moving! I walk 30 mins almost everyday, not at a crazy fast speed, and I do it with my family and we just enjoy our time together with no distractions and enjoy the fresh air.
I have lost 20 lbs in 5 weeks and have not starved or been deprived. I have had wine, pizza, some desserts and lots and lots of nutrition. I feel wonderful and have more hair than ever before LOL!
Any diet that you will cause you to lose hair or become nutritionally deficient from is not a good balanced and healthy diet. Any diet that requires that you remove good whole foods from your everyday eating is not good for you. Any diet that allows you to eat processed foods is not going to work out well for your health in the long run. You don’t need to be a Dr or a scientist to know that eating high calorie, high fat meats and cheeses day in and day out will probably give you some sort of heart issue as well as a myriad of other health problems. Eat what your own common sense tells you is good and healthy. Uncomplicate your life starting with your food. Reduce the ingredients in what you prepare (unless it’s other fruits and vegetables or herbs and spices) and simplify it.
Simplifying what goes into our bodies has been a great start to a less complicated lifestyle. I have already seen the effects in other aspects of my life that I wanted to improve.